December 9, 2021

 Letter to my boyfriend...

Hey Brian,

I cannot believe that you cleaned out an entire bedroom in one day! You are a miracle worker with skills. What you accomplished is so mind bending that it's hard to conceive that a person can be that capable.  

In the afternoon I got a text from Mike that asked if I was okay and it simply let out a floodgate. My relationship with him has been so pivotal in my life. I felt like I failed as a person when I failed in my friendship with him. I love the moment between you and I where I was utterly vulnerable and drowning, and in that moment, you saw me.  

Then afterwards, I got a distress signal on my phone from my mom in Las Vegas. It said that my mother was in an emergency SOS situation. I was frozen with fear. I tried to get the police to come to her location and waited breathlessly. I hadn't realized that I was on her emergency contact notification in case of a crisis. I imagined every possible scenario that could have played out, at which point you said that it was possible that she may have just called for an ambulance and it's just an automatic notification. I was so utterly relieved to embrace a less dire scenario. Thank you for allaying my absolute worst fears. I'd say that you saved me.

Later you said, "I love you". In all the time that I had known my ex-husband and even during the time that we had been married, he had never ever once said those words to me and it was all I ever wanted so thank you for letting it mean commitment: that you are committed to me; that you are committed to us.

I never thought that I could ever have that.  

My entire perspective on life has shifted because you said those words to me.

You're everything that I've ever dreamed of; someone who accepts me. I asked the universe for someone and you are my gift. 

I feel like right now I'm on the threshold of having everything, everything that I've ever wished for in life, because I have the gift of having you as a part of it.

You're so much a man that fills my heart and I love the air that I breathe because you allow me to share with you the things that I find  

delight in.

Brian, you're my happily ever after.

Betty Bassett