December 10, 2021

 Hey Brian,

I had the funnest time riding on the bus with you. I'm glad you got the rundown on how dangerous I am; how I'm a lethal weapon because I've learned so much from watching martial arts movies. I love being with you. You make me smile.

Thank you for helping me put the lamps together and moving the couch from the bedroom. There's so much more space.

Being with you is the brightest part of my day. Thank you for indulging all my questions about how you process the world. I'm just so curious about things because I'm an amateur psychologist, self proclaimed.

I loved that you made the time to listen to me in everything that I say. You make me feel so important, like I'm so entertaining that I have your attention. How lucky am I? I love explains timelines and histories. Thank you for indulging me.

You're so much a man that fills my heart. I love the air that I breathe because you allow me to share with you the things that I find delightful.  

I'm so lucky to have you in my life Brian because you really know how to spoil a girl.

I love you.

Betty Bassett 

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Thank you for making my life an adventure, Brian. You bring beauty to everything that you touch.

My life is more organized because of you.  

I don't think I actually knew how to get everything without getting mired in the details.  

Thank you for having a brain that works entirely different from mine, logical, creative, beautiful...

As you lay sleeping it's like I have this precious thing in my bed that I prize.  

You mean so much to me in the small amount of time that we've known each othe

My life would be so hard without you. It would take me literally a million years to get my house together. I just don't have that talent. I'm glad that you saw past that.  

I love you. 

Because I'm shit.  Drunk.  At 11:30am.   How much more shit can you get than that.

I love yo

Because you were in prison for three years.  You have that wisdom.

I wonder if you think I trust you.

Or the extent of it.

You have an innateness that is so beautiful.

I'm like sooo far from perfect.  

I'm like this thing.

And I'm grateful that you can deal.

I don't know why you don't turn awAy from me.  It's not like I'm attractive.  I'm flawed.  

I love you, like that's supposed to fix everything. In essence. I don't know. It's too complicated.

Maybe life is effort. You love others according to the effort that they exert on your behalf.

The more that I say I love you the more that I sink into this hole that makes it real in every aspect of the word.

I'm trying not to be scared.

I am mean and I cut my hair today.

After 5 years of not doing so.

I don't jump 

Nobody's the boss of me

But I love you

And that means everything.

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